Btw Desperation and Hope

as i predicted new turns are waiting in life....i was right...new turns have come.....and as always i wasnt expecting them to be like that.....its so strange you know a thing is going to happen and yet when it happens you feel the shock as you werent expecting it.....
my heart is crushed btw hope and desperation.....as always i am begging HIM.....and with an afraid heart believing that as always HE will grant me....HE has always granted me....but sometimes its through a different path.....
i am grateful to HIM with all my heart n soul but just wanna tel....dont have the power to go through some other path.....just grant me MY LORD without any trials and tests....i am very tired.....i.....i just............

Just be there MOLA.....YOU know you are the only ONE..........