fix btw desperation and hope.....

today on my way back i was in a strange state.....i wasnt sure what i am doing.....for what i am doing.....where am i going.....i have lost all my sense of judgement....
I who used to boast about getting the sense of everything.....recognizing every person....I who used to be so sure about my ideas....who used to defend them with clearance....is no more the same.........
sometimes i feel the great urge of keeping quite....of staying silent...of not answering anyone's any question.....my mind is in constant war....thinking n thinking....not coming to any conclusion.....there is no clear path infront of me....on every path there are people to tell me that i am about to choose the wrong path.....
i am so much afraid of the wrong path.....coz i know if i did i shall never be allowed to go on any path.... to choose any path.....the only key is the success key.....the world....your friends....your parents....everyone....just accept the success....
no one is with you when you lose....
i dont know again what i am trying to say what i want.....i dont know anthing.....i am hating everything....i am hating myself....